I know I have been absent for a week, I apologize for that. I will not make excuses I got out of the habit of blogging and today I am back to it.
We went to my parent for the weekend and had a wonderful time but I brought home a horrible cold and have been pretty much on the couch since we got home. I haven't weighed in so I am not sure if I am maintaining or gaining. I am going to get well first then hit it hard again.
Its snowing here and here in the Pacific Northwest when it snows everything closes down. So there is no school today. Its ok cause Krysta is getting my cold and so it gives her down day to hopefully kick this cold. So we are having a jammy day.
While I was at my parents house I did go walk 2 miles, I did try and run but my leg is still hurting so I just walked. This weather is not helping my muscle either its crapping up and makes it the pain worse.
My parents have found an eating plan that teaches you how to eat the right portions and how to put food together to optimize your metabolism and Matthew and I are really thinking we may start that plan as well. The program is 150 so we are trying to put the money aside to get it. The program can be found at myfoodlovers.com My mom has already lost 17 pounds and loves it because she can eat everything but it teaches you portion control.
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Friday, February 18, 2011
Day 18 of my battle
I have been battling with being discouraged and I have instead of posting them here been shutting myself off from the world. I am frustrated with the fact I am doing everything right but not losing a darn pound. At the same time I watch my husband who has only cut out Dr. Pepper, salad dressing, cutting back on portions sizes and lost 15 pounds in 2 weeks. Yes that is right 15 pounds in 14 days UGH so annoying and frustrating I could scream. So here I am with my 3.6 pounds lost and working my butt off exercising, giving up on my most favorite foods and down in the dumps.... my leg hurts, I'm frustrated, and annoyed with my husbands happy happy joy joy moment of I only need to lose 2 more pounds and I am back in regulations....
I looked at the banana split table on Tuesday and I am up 1lb... I didn't even eat any of it and I am up.. UGH I am hating life and I am hating trying to get healthy when I am not even seeing any results! I should have just ate the darn thing and then would have a reason to be up.... *sigh* yes I know I am whining and need to get over it but I still needed to vent.. get the negative thoughts out then maybe I can get back on track of losing.
I am going to my parents house this weekend and hopefully seeing my mom and dad on their journey as well will give me some hope that this will end. I can at least say I haven't gone off my healthy eating to wallow in self pity! YAY point for me UGH....
Ok I am off to be down and out with laundry and packing..... Everyone have a great Friday!
Don't give up Raelynn stay the course!!!
I looked at the banana split table on Tuesday and I am up 1lb... I didn't even eat any of it and I am up.. UGH I am hating life and I am hating trying to get healthy when I am not even seeing any results! I should have just ate the darn thing and then would have a reason to be up.... *sigh* yes I know I am whining and need to get over it but I still needed to vent.. get the negative thoughts out then maybe I can get back on track of losing.
I am going to my parents house this weekend and hopefully seeing my mom and dad on their journey as well will give me some hope that this will end. I can at least say I haven't gone off my healthy eating to wallow in self pity! YAY point for me UGH....
Ok I am off to be down and out with laundry and packing..... Everyone have a great Friday!
Don't give up Raelynn stay the course!!!
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Day 12 of my battle
Im sorry this post is late last night was a rough night. I was upset and mad about hurting my leg and was not in the frame of mind to post. Matthew rubbed out my leg and it feels a little better as long as I am not on it. So I am not going to run but I will continue to walk and do my other cardio work out as long as I its not hurting to bad.
Yesterday I went to Krysta's class Valentine's party and I succeed in not indulging in the banana splits. I took my water and we have a grand time not eating. It felt so good not feeling guilty about eating it. My will power is getting better and better and that excites me.
This morning I went to the commissary and by the time I was done I was feeling my leg but I will not let this stop my weight loss. I will be more diligent on my portions and be extra careful about the what I eat. That means more extra lean meats like chicken and pork instead of beef.
When injuries happen its easy to go down the path of feeling sorry for yourself and give up on your weight loss goals I am here to tell you don't defeat yourself, don't give up on being healthy. Injuries come and go but your health is important. Stay the course and you will see the results.
I am starting to be more inventive with my foods, for instants our salads today I put 2 hard boiled eggs, with pinch of cheese, sliced strawberries, and blueberries, carrots and of course lettuce. I am satisfied and I don't feel weighed down.
I am staying the course not letting this injury get me down!
Yesterday I went to Krysta's class Valentine's party and I succeed in not indulging in the banana splits. I took my water and we have a grand time not eating. It felt so good not feeling guilty about eating it. My will power is getting better and better and that excites me.
This morning I went to the commissary and by the time I was done I was feeling my leg but I will not let this stop my weight loss. I will be more diligent on my portions and be extra careful about the what I eat. That means more extra lean meats like chicken and pork instead of beef.
When injuries happen its easy to go down the path of feeling sorry for yourself and give up on your weight loss goals I am here to tell you don't defeat yourself, don't give up on being healthy. Injuries come and go but your health is important. Stay the course and you will see the results.
I am starting to be more inventive with my foods, for instants our salads today I put 2 hard boiled eggs, with pinch of cheese, sliced strawberries, and blueberries, carrots and of course lettuce. I am satisfied and I don't feel weighed down.
I am staying the course not letting this injury get me down!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Day 10 of my Battle
Weight in day today I am down another 1.4 pounds. Not as much as I thought it would've liked but with my tummy problems this week I'll take any loss. That is a total of 3.6 pounds.
I know its easy to get discouraged over not losing as much as you expected or wanted. You set goals for yourself and when you don't make them its easy to get down on yourself. this can be self sabotage in the making, you set unreachable goals of weight loss and when you don't reach it you go off plan and wallow in your disappointment with a pint of Ben and Jerry's, bag of chips, a bag of Hershey kisses or whatever soothes you in your failure.
In this journey I am here to show you that change is possible and here is the first place to start. In your weekly weigh-ins. Any loss is a reason to be happy, congratulate yourself with a mani, pedi, or buy yourself that video game you been looking at for awhile. Take the food out of the celebrating this is important for permanent weight loss. Look at it this way a what do at weddings, graduation, retirement party, promotion, baby shower, birthday, new years, and Christmas parties. we eat. We are celebrating with food. I'm not saying that these things are bad these are wonderful times with friends and family, what I am saying is that its so ingrained in our heads that a even a weekly weigh-in celebration could throw you off your goal.
On our run today we took Duchess out with us. She did fabulous which is surprising since she is a lazy basset hound. She is a control freak herself, she has to be in the front and will make sure of it the entire time. She now lays at my feet passed out snoring and will probably be that way the rest of the day. She is a funny dog but we love her.
I hope I was able to give you some ideas on beating the disappointments as well and not sabotaging your successes. My saying for today is............. Any loss is great!!!
I know its easy to get discouraged over not losing as much as you expected or wanted. You set goals for yourself and when you don't make them its easy to get down on yourself. this can be self sabotage in the making, you set unreachable goals of weight loss and when you don't reach it you go off plan and wallow in your disappointment with a pint of Ben and Jerry's, bag of chips, a bag of Hershey kisses or whatever soothes you in your failure.
In this journey I am here to show you that change is possible and here is the first place to start. In your weekly weigh-ins. Any loss is a reason to be happy, congratulate yourself with a mani, pedi, or buy yourself that video game you been looking at for awhile. Take the food out of the celebrating this is important for permanent weight loss. Look at it this way a what do at weddings, graduation, retirement party, promotion, baby shower, birthday, new years, and Christmas parties. we eat. We are celebrating with food. I'm not saying that these things are bad these are wonderful times with friends and family, what I am saying is that its so ingrained in our heads that a even a weekly weigh-in celebration could throw you off your goal.
On our run today we took Duchess out with us. She did fabulous which is surprising since she is a lazy basset hound. She is a control freak herself, she has to be in the front and will make sure of it the entire time. She now lays at my feet passed out snoring and will probably be that way the rest of the day. She is a funny dog but we love her.
I hope I was able to give you some ideas on beating the disappointments as well and not sabotaging your successes. My saying for today is............. Any loss is great!!!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Day 9 of my battle
Happy Saturday everyone!!!! What a day it was full of wind and rain here. The wind was very cold and I found myself cold ALL day. I had a long sleeve shirt, sweatshirt, and a pair of lounge pants on all day and still had to have a blanket. Like I posted on my Facebook the only downside of losing weight is losing my insulation (Bob I corrected it here). Inside joke
Last night after Emalynn went down Matthew and I did our workout and it felt good. My body is starting to get used to working out and if I don't it feels oh I don't know sluggish is the best way to explain it I think. I know its hard to get started but once you get into a routine; and not let your internal conversations get the best of you, you may start to look forward to it.
So as we are coming close to Valentines Day I am seeing more and more commercials for chocolate, UGH this is my weakness. If one could live off chocolate I so would. So I am having a hard time but I am staying away from all stores and muting or walking away from the TV when such commercials come on. I know I can make it through 3 weeks without chocolate. I know I don't have to give up chocolate but I am choosing to do so for 3 weeks to break the addiction I have with it. I refusing to let anything control me anymore! I in life don't usually let anyone control me but for some reason I have let food control me. For someone who is a control freak to have something control them is kinda funny!
Why do people sabotage themselves? Are we afraid of changing for the better? Afraid of failure so we don't try? Afraid of disappointing ourselves or someone close to us? We will all fail in our lives its how we pick ourselves up and move on that will be what stays with us and others. I have failed by gaining this weight so now its time to pick myself up and get it off and show myself that I can succeed. I have sabotaged myself by saying "oh will eat better tomorrow" or "Ill start working out tomorrow", why because the food controlled me I needed that fix food was my drug. I am afraid of disappointing myself and my girls by not getting healthy but I cant let that fear control me I have to get healthy for them and most of all for myself. Changing is the scariest thing, the unknown I think scares all of us. But for me to succeed I have to change. Change my way I look at food, how I eat, why I eat, and how much I eat to make keep this weight off.
my saying to myself today..... Change is hard but necessary to be healthy
Last night after Emalynn went down Matthew and I did our workout and it felt good. My body is starting to get used to working out and if I don't it feels oh I don't know sluggish is the best way to explain it I think. I know its hard to get started but once you get into a routine; and not let your internal conversations get the best of you, you may start to look forward to it.
So as we are coming close to Valentines Day I am seeing more and more commercials for chocolate, UGH this is my weakness. If one could live off chocolate I so would. So I am having a hard time but I am staying away from all stores and muting or walking away from the TV when such commercials come on. I know I can make it through 3 weeks without chocolate. I know I don't have to give up chocolate but I am choosing to do so for 3 weeks to break the addiction I have with it. I refusing to let anything control me anymore! I in life don't usually let anyone control me but for some reason I have let food control me. For someone who is a control freak to have something control them is kinda funny!
Why do people sabotage themselves? Are we afraid of changing for the better? Afraid of failure so we don't try? Afraid of disappointing ourselves or someone close to us? We will all fail in our lives its how we pick ourselves up and move on that will be what stays with us and others. I have failed by gaining this weight so now its time to pick myself up and get it off and show myself that I can succeed. I have sabotaged myself by saying "oh will eat better tomorrow" or "Ill start working out tomorrow", why because the food controlled me I needed that fix food was my drug. I am afraid of disappointing myself and my girls by not getting healthy but I cant let that fear control me I have to get healthy for them and most of all for myself. Changing is the scariest thing, the unknown I think scares all of us. But for me to succeed I have to change. Change my way I look at food, how I eat, why I eat, and how much I eat to make keep this weight off.
my saying to myself today..... Change is hard but necessary to be healthy
Friday, February 11, 2011
Day 8
Happy Friday everyone! Today has been good day! I am feeling kinda bloated but other then that pretty good! Since I am feeling the bloat today I thought I would talk about it in my blog. LOL It looks like its going to be a interesting blog today that is for sure.
Bloating is very common its the accumulation of liquids and intestianl gas. Ascites is the proper medical term for abdominal bloating caused by excessive accumulation of liquid inside the cavity.
Gas and bloating is a sign that food is not being ingested correctly by the body. An inadequate intake of water will cause excessive stomach bloating. Water benefits the body by aiding with digestion because it supports a majority of the body's daily functions. Fatty foods cause a formation of fat cells to develop throughout the body and contribute to bloating as well. A build up of fat cells slows down the body's ability to empty the stomach. Dairy products also contribute to excessive cramps, gas, and bloating. Persons who are intolerant to lactose products experience this effect more than others. Once these foods are digested, the bloating will fade.
If bloating occurs and you do not want to take medications to relieve it, there are a few things that can be done to relieve the pressure in the stomach. Taking a walk after eating a meal is a good way to nudge the contents of the bowels along. Exercising releases hormones that work to encourage activity in the bowels. Herbal teas are also recommended to break up gas bubbles that can develop. Some foods like coffee and chocolate can stimulate the digestive tract and cause a build up of gas to occur, resulting in bloating. Meals that are high in fat are often too hard for the system to digest and can stimulate spasms and bloating. In addition, foods that are extremely hot or cold can draw air inside as they are being eaten. Foods like bubble gum or bubbly beverages also cause a build up of air that results in excessive gas and bloating, so it is recommendable not to consume them. It is also best to cease smoking and the use of tobacco products. There are also certain types of vegetables and fruits that contain types of starches which are poorly digested by people but well digested by bacteria.
I got all this from the internet, its great having such things at my fingertips. I am hoping that the next couple days my bloating will go away and 'Ill get back to losing but until then I'll keep staying on track knowing that I am doing everything I am suppose to do and feel good about it.
Today Krysta was asked to spend the night at a friends house so we were unable to run but after Emalynn goes to bed we will be doing our cardio workout. We decided that this will become more and more frequent so we will change our running from Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Do my other workout Tuesday and Friday.
I keep saying myself..... Stay the course and you will be rewarded
Bloating is very common its the accumulation of liquids and intestianl gas. Ascites is the proper medical term for abdominal bloating caused by excessive accumulation of liquid inside the cavity.
Gas and bloating is a sign that food is not being ingested correctly by the body. An inadequate intake of water will cause excessive stomach bloating. Water benefits the body by aiding with digestion because it supports a majority of the body's daily functions. Fatty foods cause a formation of fat cells to develop throughout the body and contribute to bloating as well. A build up of fat cells slows down the body's ability to empty the stomach. Dairy products also contribute to excessive cramps, gas, and bloating. Persons who are intolerant to lactose products experience this effect more than others. Once these foods are digested, the bloating will fade.
If bloating occurs and you do not want to take medications to relieve it, there are a few things that can be done to relieve the pressure in the stomach. Taking a walk after eating a meal is a good way to nudge the contents of the bowels along. Exercising releases hormones that work to encourage activity in the bowels. Herbal teas are also recommended to break up gas bubbles that can develop. Some foods like coffee and chocolate can stimulate the digestive tract and cause a build up of gas to occur, resulting in bloating. Meals that are high in fat are often too hard for the system to digest and can stimulate spasms and bloating. In addition, foods that are extremely hot or cold can draw air inside as they are being eaten. Foods like bubble gum or bubbly beverages also cause a build up of air that results in excessive gas and bloating, so it is recommendable not to consume them. It is also best to cease smoking and the use of tobacco products. There are also certain types of vegetables and fruits that contain types of starches which are poorly digested by people but well digested by bacteria.
I got all this from the internet, its great having such things at my fingertips. I am hoping that the next couple days my bloating will go away and 'Ill get back to losing but until then I'll keep staying on track knowing that I am doing everything I am suppose to do and feel good about it.
Today Krysta was asked to spend the night at a friends house so we were unable to run but after Emalynn goes to bed we will be doing our cardio workout. We decided that this will become more and more frequent so we will change our running from Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Do my other workout Tuesday and Friday.
I keep saying myself..... Stay the course and you will be rewarded
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Day 7 of my battle
Wow, its been a week already since I started blogging. This week has had up and downs that is for sure but writing has helped me to stay focused on my goal.
After last nights run my left calf muscle got tight and I am still trying to loosen it up today. I get it stretched out and then I sit for a few minutes and its a knot again. So Ill just keep stretching and hopefully over the day it will get better. So it made for an interesting workout this morning but I made it through.
Having gotten into a routine (routine is my friend) I am starting to have more energy, feeling better and I am starting to see the difference in my legs and arms woot maybe I'll FINALLY get rid of my thighs that I hate so much! Why is it the area you want to get rid of the most (stomach) is always the last to see a difference. I am not going to complain because I am seeing the difference in my legs and that is also a big trouble spot for me.
As the day goes on my leg is feeling a little better. Just had a wonderful lunch with Matthew while Emalynn was sleeping. It was so nice to be able to eat a meal in quiet it doesnt happen much around here so I'll take what I can get. I made a salad and we added some baked chicken in there for our protein.
Over all it was an ok day. Could have done better with my eating but Ill do better tomorrow. Today is already done and I cant take any of it back so moving on. I didnt do bad but I couldve done better!
My head is hurting so I am off to bed! Prolly be up ten times tonight because of all the water I just drank but need to get rid of this nasty headache! Tomorrow I promise I'll write more but my for now goodnight!
my saying for today... you will mess up from time to time but dont let it get you down
After last nights run my left calf muscle got tight and I am still trying to loosen it up today. I get it stretched out and then I sit for a few minutes and its a knot again. So Ill just keep stretching and hopefully over the day it will get better. So it made for an interesting workout this morning but I made it through.
Having gotten into a routine (routine is my friend) I am starting to have more energy, feeling better and I am starting to see the difference in my legs and arms woot maybe I'll FINALLY get rid of my thighs that I hate so much! Why is it the area you want to get rid of the most (stomach) is always the last to see a difference. I am not going to complain because I am seeing the difference in my legs and that is also a big trouble spot for me.
As the day goes on my leg is feeling a little better. Just had a wonderful lunch with Matthew while Emalynn was sleeping. It was so nice to be able to eat a meal in quiet it doesnt happen much around here so I'll take what I can get. I made a salad and we added some baked chicken in there for our protein.
Over all it was an ok day. Could have done better with my eating but Ill do better tomorrow. Today is already done and I cant take any of it back so moving on. I didnt do bad but I couldve done better!
My head is hurting so I am off to bed! Prolly be up ten times tonight because of all the water I just drank but need to get rid of this nasty headache! Tomorrow I promise I'll write more but my for now goodnight!
my saying for today... you will mess up from time to time but dont let it get you down
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
day 6 of my battle
Today I am having a rough day. I am having a mental battle with myself. I am fighting off the negative thoughts of I don't want to run tonight and the ones that are trying to make excuses on why not to run. Ugh I wish they would just go away. Running today is more important then ever because it will push through the negative and I wont go back down the path into a self destruction.
Its so important for me to stick to my guns today because of these feelings. While I was at the commissary today there was chocolate EVERYWHERE and I again was able to fight the temptation. It feels good to be able to know my will power is on point today since I am having this mental battle. I am truly in a funk over this I really don't want to do anything but go to bed. Luckily I have Emalynn here and since she is up I am unable to do just that. The day is dragging which I think makes the funk a little worse.
To fight days like this I need to make a plan, go to the park, go for a walk, do some errands, call my BFF (she is very busy this week) she would tell me to get over it; that is how we roll LOL. Something that gets me out of the house and out of my internal conversation. Blogging today is what is getting me out of that conversation because its to chilly outside for Emalynn to be out to long even bundled up, I did do an errand today but I guess it wasn't enough to break the funk.
My BFF called and I feel tons better! Its amazing how a 15 minute conversation can change your outlook of your day. She made me laugh, let me vent gave me some advice on how to get out my funk and helped me move on with my day. Soon after we hung up Matthew and I went for our run and I am so glad I did, I feel so much better. I ran all those negative thoughts out of me stomped them right into the ground.
Krysta has decided she wants in on this running thing so Matthew and her will run on the days we don't. She is excited to have daddy daughter time and get a workout at the same time. Since playing basketball she would like to get her stamina up so she can run the entire game without getting winded. I am hopeful this will become something she loves to do and will continue through her life.
So for my day starting out rough I can say it ended much better. Got my run in ate right and now its time to relax and enjoy my family!
what I have been saying to myself all day... You can beat this, you are better then this!!!
Its so important for me to stick to my guns today because of these feelings. While I was at the commissary today there was chocolate EVERYWHERE and I again was able to fight the temptation. It feels good to be able to know my will power is on point today since I am having this mental battle. I am truly in a funk over this I really don't want to do anything but go to bed. Luckily I have Emalynn here and since she is up I am unable to do just that. The day is dragging which I think makes the funk a little worse.
To fight days like this I need to make a plan, go to the park, go for a walk, do some errands, call my BFF (she is very busy this week) she would tell me to get over it; that is how we roll LOL. Something that gets me out of the house and out of my internal conversation. Blogging today is what is getting me out of that conversation because its to chilly outside for Emalynn to be out to long even bundled up, I did do an errand today but I guess it wasn't enough to break the funk.
My BFF called and I feel tons better! Its amazing how a 15 minute conversation can change your outlook of your day. She made me laugh, let me vent gave me some advice on how to get out my funk and helped me move on with my day. Soon after we hung up Matthew and I went for our run and I am so glad I did, I feel so much better. I ran all those negative thoughts out of me stomped them right into the ground.
Krysta has decided she wants in on this running thing so Matthew and her will run on the days we don't. She is excited to have daddy daughter time and get a workout at the same time. Since playing basketball she would like to get her stamina up so she can run the entire game without getting winded. I am hopeful this will become something she loves to do and will continue through her life.
So for my day starting out rough I can say it ended much better. Got my run in ate right and now its time to relax and enjoy my family!
what I have been saying to myself all day... You can beat this, you are better then this!!!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Day 5 of my battle
Today was kind of a crazy day! The girls had dentist appointments this morning and then I had a meeting this afternoon with Matt's chain of command about the FRG (Family Readiness Group).
I got up this morning and did my Billy Blake's Boot Camp at times it felt really good and then other times I was in a forceful voice telling him to shut up. He would say one more set then go talking and we would do WAY more then one set. I was dying at this point every muscle was screaming at me and so I let him have it. I know he didn't hear me but man it felt good!
Today was the first time eating out since I have started my journey to a healthier me and I think I did well, I spilt my fettuccine with Emalynn and the Bistro we went to had Pepsi products and I ordered water. YAY me for being able to withstand the temptation that made me feel good! Emalynn LOVES pasta and I ordered it because I knew she would eat it and not fuss over what was in front of her. She was going on no nap so I opted for easy! Sometimes as Moms we just have to do the easy! It was the perfect portion not to much and not to little and sharing it with Emalynn made it that much more perfect. I ate till I was feeling satisfied and then she ate the rest.
Did you know you are to eat 6 to 8 times a day to keep your body working at optimum levels. Each time you eat you are suppose to have a protein and a carb. So this would be for example my morning snack usually consists of an apple with peanut butter or cheese. Its important to have a little of each because you want to keep you body in balance. If you over eat on protein you will be missing important vitamins and minerals, and if you over eat on carbs you will feel sluggish. For the past week I have been doing just this and not only is my energy level better but I am fuller faster and longer through the day and I don't have benging moments cause I'm starving. Today we went to lunch with Matthew's command and I spilt fettuccine with Emalynn and let me tell you it was off what I am used to and I felt sluggish and all I wanted to do was nap. I did have some shrimp in it but it wasn't enough compared to the amount of fettuccine. So I learned maybe next time get something with a little more balanced carb and protein in it.
Some people hear the word carb and thing oh no bad must stay away from them, but I am here to tell you there are good carbs and bad carbs. Fruit and veggies good carbs, chips and cookies bad carbs. Fruits and veggies are burned faster and easier then chips, cookies, breads, and pasta's and are less likely then to be stored for later as fat. I'm not saying don't eat these things but if you are trying to lose weight eat or maintain your weight you need to eat them like everything else in moderation.
I know spewed a lot of information out there I hope I didn't confuse you and it helps you in your battle with either maintaining or losing weight.
My saying for myself today...... Learning how to eat will make you successful in keeping the weight off
I got up this morning and did my Billy Blake's Boot Camp at times it felt really good and then other times I was in a forceful voice telling him to shut up. He would say one more set then go talking and we would do WAY more then one set. I was dying at this point every muscle was screaming at me and so I let him have it. I know he didn't hear me but man it felt good!
Today was the first time eating out since I have started my journey to a healthier me and I think I did well, I spilt my fettuccine with Emalynn and the Bistro we went to had Pepsi products and I ordered water. YAY me for being able to withstand the temptation that made me feel good! Emalynn LOVES pasta and I ordered it because I knew she would eat it and not fuss over what was in front of her. She was going on no nap so I opted for easy! Sometimes as Moms we just have to do the easy! It was the perfect portion not to much and not to little and sharing it with Emalynn made it that much more perfect. I ate till I was feeling satisfied and then she ate the rest.
Did you know you are to eat 6 to 8 times a day to keep your body working at optimum levels. Each time you eat you are suppose to have a protein and a carb. So this would be for example my morning snack usually consists of an apple with peanut butter or cheese. Its important to have a little of each because you want to keep you body in balance. If you over eat on protein you will be missing important vitamins and minerals, and if you over eat on carbs you will feel sluggish. For the past week I have been doing just this and not only is my energy level better but I am fuller faster and longer through the day and I don't have benging moments cause I'm starving. Today we went to lunch with Matthew's command and I spilt fettuccine with Emalynn and let me tell you it was off what I am used to and I felt sluggish and all I wanted to do was nap. I did have some shrimp in it but it wasn't enough compared to the amount of fettuccine. So I learned maybe next time get something with a little more balanced carb and protein in it.
Some people hear the word carb and thing oh no bad must stay away from them, but I am here to tell you there are good carbs and bad carbs. Fruit and veggies good carbs, chips and cookies bad carbs. Fruits and veggies are burned faster and easier then chips, cookies, breads, and pasta's and are less likely then to be stored for later as fat. I'm not saying don't eat these things but if you are trying to lose weight eat or maintain your weight you need to eat them like everything else in moderation.
I know spewed a lot of information out there I hope I didn't confuse you and it helps you in your battle with either maintaining or losing weight.
My saying for myself today...... Learning how to eat will make you successful in keeping the weight off
Monday, February 7, 2011
day 4 of my battle
Oh what a day! Being a mom with young kids is hard enough so I try so hard to keep it organized and on a schedule. My family is very scheduled not because I am being hardcore military its because my girls function better on it and I keep my sanity! So keeping a workout schedule is very important to me or I feel out of sync. This month Matthew and I have to work around Krysta's basketball to run. There is no he gets home after work and its decided oh we are to tired. No we will go come rain, snow, or shine. Living in the Pacific Northwest rain is more common then not.
I am convinced that losing weight is partially mental, you have to fight with your inner voice on what you can and cant do. Tonight on our run we were almost done and Matthew thought we had done our last interval but I said no lets run to the street, I pushed myself and did it I would not listen to my inner voice and just walk the rest of the way home.
Today for me was a rough day. Emalynn got up in the middle of the night screaming then was wild awake and didnt want to go back to bed. When the alarm went off we didnt want to get up but we did and started our day. I was unable to lay down during the day because we had a maintance guy coming by to fix Krysta's broken shower. Its been a very long day but I pushed through but I can tell you this I am looking forward to bed.
Working out with someone is the easiest way to keep yourself on track. Having that person next to you, you will be less likely to slack off. For me Matthew is much more then running/walking partner he keeps me honest. When I went to the gym I felt I got more out of doing classes then working out on my own. I need that structure. Tuesday and Thursday I do work out alone doing a workout here at home but Matthew knowing my personality he asks specific questions about my work out to know it I slacked off or not. I dont like disappointing him so I do my best not to. When I get to a point where I can run for miles I will just put on my favorite music on my ipod and just jam out. Of course it will be all crazy 80's and 90's music but hey Ill jam out as I run LOL. But that is many many days away.
my saying for myself today... NO PAIN NO PAIN NO PAIN
I am convinced that losing weight is partially mental, you have to fight with your inner voice on what you can and cant do. Tonight on our run we were almost done and Matthew thought we had done our last interval but I said no lets run to the street, I pushed myself and did it I would not listen to my inner voice and just walk the rest of the way home.
Today for me was a rough day. Emalynn got up in the middle of the night screaming then was wild awake and didnt want to go back to bed. When the alarm went off we didnt want to get up but we did and started our day. I was unable to lay down during the day because we had a maintance guy coming by to fix Krysta's broken shower. Its been a very long day but I pushed through but I can tell you this I am looking forward to bed.
Working out with someone is the easiest way to keep yourself on track. Having that person next to you, you will be less likely to slack off. For me Matthew is much more then running/walking partner he keeps me honest. When I went to the gym I felt I got more out of doing classes then working out on my own. I need that structure. Tuesday and Thursday I do work out alone doing a workout here at home but Matthew knowing my personality he asks specific questions about my work out to know it I slacked off or not. I dont like disappointing him so I do my best not to. When I get to a point where I can run for miles I will just put on my favorite music on my ipod and just jam out. Of course it will be all crazy 80's and 90's music but hey Ill jam out as I run LOL. But that is many many days away.
my saying for myself today... NO PAIN NO PAIN NO PAIN
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Day 3 of Battle
Today was weigh-in day I am down 2.2 pounds for the week! High five to me!! So many more to go but it is a start!
Today Matthew and I watched Heavy on Demand. This show is such an inspiration for me. It takes such strength to put yourself out there and when you are morbidly obese its about 100 times worse. You already get the looks and people talking behind your back but for millions of people to see you on TV and hear your story that is very special.
I have never had issues with telling how it is or putting people in their place. Its just who I am! I am blunt sometimes I do it with tact and well sometimes I forgo the tact and just put it out there. The problem is I haven't been honest with myself, I look in the mirror and I turn into exactly what I dislike in people. I have been making excuses for what I have been eating or doing for the past 19 months. Oh Ill eat better tomorrow, oh its OK ill just have to work it off tomorrow... Its always tomorrow but not today well darn it Raelynn this is why you are where you are today! Not making yourself accountable for what you put in your mouth every time you eat! Shame on me I have turned into exactly what I didn't want to! Well I can tell you that I am taking me back!!! I will no longer let myself be one of those people, I am taking responsibility for what I put into my mouth.
As a child my parents always were pushing me to be better. As a parent I now see a fine line of over pushing. I'm not saying my parents over pushed or under pushed me. I think I translated their pushing into a complex of being overly self conscious. Of course it didn't help I was a little pudgy in middle school and I remember boys making fun of me calling me a moo cow, fatty, and several other names I wont repeat. But the summer between sixth and seventh I did Eureka and one of my friends Tricia and I would walk from her dad's work at the Nissan dealership up to Wenatchee Valley College Monday through Friday during the summer. I lost weight and from then to the end of high school I didn't have a weight problem. But still to this day I am still haunted by the comments made to me during that one year. I have never said this out loud before and many of my high school friends maybe surprised. I always covered this up with laughs or withdrawing. All my high school friends can agree with that because I totally stated to withdraw around my Junior year. It didn't help that my Grandmother who was my best friend was diagnosed with cancer and died soon after. I guess its about time I face these skeletons and put them to rest.
Changed it up today with my routine I went and did our run/walk. Tonight we are having a taco lasagna and since it has a little more fat and calories then I would like I am being proactive and doing some exercise to counter it. This is a good practice for me to get into because after I reach my goal this will have to be done to maintain my weight. I did add 30 seconds to run time today. Oh wow, I didn't think it would matter much. But after 1 minute my body and head were screaming at me. It amazes me how fast your body can become accustom to a routine. So glad I changed it up! I did have a stumble today though, we hit an area where some people were out smoking and that made my lungs go crazy and I couldn't get a breath so we had to stop running for me to recover, I did and we ran 2 more intervals! Each time I run it will get easier and I will get better, it will go so much smoother when I find my stride. I try to match Matthew but he is just enough taller then me that when I try to match his I feel like I am about to do the splits.
my saying for myself today.... You are your own worst enemy
Today Matthew and I watched Heavy on Demand. This show is such an inspiration for me. It takes such strength to put yourself out there and when you are morbidly obese its about 100 times worse. You already get the looks and people talking behind your back but for millions of people to see you on TV and hear your story that is very special.
I have never had issues with telling how it is or putting people in their place. Its just who I am! I am blunt sometimes I do it with tact and well sometimes I forgo the tact and just put it out there. The problem is I haven't been honest with myself, I look in the mirror and I turn into exactly what I dislike in people. I have been making excuses for what I have been eating or doing for the past 19 months. Oh Ill eat better tomorrow, oh its OK ill just have to work it off tomorrow... Its always tomorrow but not today well darn it Raelynn this is why you are where you are today! Not making yourself accountable for what you put in your mouth every time you eat! Shame on me I have turned into exactly what I didn't want to! Well I can tell you that I am taking me back!!! I will no longer let myself be one of those people, I am taking responsibility for what I put into my mouth.
As a child my parents always were pushing me to be better. As a parent I now see a fine line of over pushing. I'm not saying my parents over pushed or under pushed me. I think I translated their pushing into a complex of being overly self conscious. Of course it didn't help I was a little pudgy in middle school and I remember boys making fun of me calling me a moo cow, fatty, and several other names I wont repeat. But the summer between sixth and seventh I did Eureka and one of my friends Tricia and I would walk from her dad's work at the Nissan dealership up to Wenatchee Valley College Monday through Friday during the summer. I lost weight and from then to the end of high school I didn't have a weight problem. But still to this day I am still haunted by the comments made to me during that one year. I have never said this out loud before and many of my high school friends maybe surprised. I always covered this up with laughs or withdrawing. All my high school friends can agree with that because I totally stated to withdraw around my Junior year. It didn't help that my Grandmother who was my best friend was diagnosed with cancer and died soon after. I guess its about time I face these skeletons and put them to rest.
Changed it up today with my routine I went and did our run/walk. Tonight we are having a taco lasagna and since it has a little more fat and calories then I would like I am being proactive and doing some exercise to counter it. This is a good practice for me to get into because after I reach my goal this will have to be done to maintain my weight. I did add 30 seconds to run time today. Oh wow, I didn't think it would matter much. But after 1 minute my body and head were screaming at me. It amazes me how fast your body can become accustom to a routine. So glad I changed it up! I did have a stumble today though, we hit an area where some people were out smoking and that made my lungs go crazy and I couldn't get a breath so we had to stop running for me to recover, I did and we ran 2 more intervals! Each time I run it will get easier and I will get better, it will go so much smoother when I find my stride. I try to match Matthew but he is just enough taller then me that when I try to match his I feel like I am about to do the splits.
my saying for myself today.... You are your own worst enemy
Saturday, February 5, 2011
day 2 of my battle
Why do weekends always seem the hardest to get through? For me its because the whole family is home and I am not running around getting things done. I have always tried to do all my running around during the week so the weekend is focused on family. So being home with food at reach at any moment is hard for me. I get hand to mouth syndrome it feels almost unnatural not to being putting things into my mouth. Unlearning things that I have been doing a lifetime is as hard as learning something new for a child I suspect.
Here I am mid morning blogging instead of eating. Its almost therapeutic for me to sit here and get all these thoughts and feelings out of my head it helps me stay on track to help me reach my goal.
I have to say I am sore today from last nights run/walk. Its a good hurt reminds me that I am alive and have a long way to go before I am back to where I was just a few years ago. Those years feel like a lifetime ago. My best friend told me I was too thin and looked ill LOL.... well I promise her that I am not going to get THAT thin but I am going to get to a happy medium.
I find that as a mom I am having to think of food all the time. What is for dinner, what do I need add to the grocery list, is that healthy enough to let the kids eat, is Emalynn going to have an allergic reaction if she eats that, will Emalynn actually eat this, did Krysta make her lunch, and did she actually get to school with it (LOL). Its like all day part of my job is to think about food. How is it possible not to get a hungry when thinking about all this stuff. Not only that but with small children who dont all their lunch how many times I have just finished it there never is enough to keep so why would it matter if I just threw it away. I dont know but as I am sitting here writing I am finding that is retarded of me.
So far today my biggest craving has been bread. I have always loved bread and will be one of my biggest hurdles as I go on this journey. I allowed myself to have some to battle back the craving and now its been satisfied and can move on with my day.
Soon it will be time to make dinner and I find myself at the point again where I want to eat but I know I am not hungry so I decided to add more to my blog. I actually was able to take a little nap this afternoon and now I feel ready to take on the afternoon and evening.
We havent went and walked but its a little chilly out so we will have to wait till Krysta comes in to stay with Emalynn while Matthew and I go walk. Emalynn has had a runny nose and hasnt had much of an appetite so I am not going to take the chance.
Tonight we are going to have a UFC night I think! Should be fun I hope there is some good fights!
The thing I have said to myself today the most... I will not let the cravings control me
Here I am mid morning blogging instead of eating. Its almost therapeutic for me to sit here and get all these thoughts and feelings out of my head it helps me stay on track to help me reach my goal.
I have to say I am sore today from last nights run/walk. Its a good hurt reminds me that I am alive and have a long way to go before I am back to where I was just a few years ago. Those years feel like a lifetime ago. My best friend told me I was too thin and looked ill LOL.... well I promise her that I am not going to get THAT thin but I am going to get to a happy medium.
I find that as a mom I am having to think of food all the time. What is for dinner, what do I need add to the grocery list, is that healthy enough to let the kids eat, is Emalynn going to have an allergic reaction if she eats that, will Emalynn actually eat this, did Krysta make her lunch, and did she actually get to school with it (LOL). Its like all day part of my job is to think about food. How is it possible not to get a hungry when thinking about all this stuff. Not only that but with small children who dont all their lunch how many times I have just finished it there never is enough to keep so why would it matter if I just threw it away. I dont know but as I am sitting here writing I am finding that is retarded of me.
So far today my biggest craving has been bread. I have always loved bread and will be one of my biggest hurdles as I go on this journey. I allowed myself to have some to battle back the craving and now its been satisfied and can move on with my day.
Soon it will be time to make dinner and I find myself at the point again where I want to eat but I know I am not hungry so I decided to add more to my blog. I actually was able to take a little nap this afternoon and now I feel ready to take on the afternoon and evening.
We havent went and walked but its a little chilly out so we will have to wait till Krysta comes in to stay with Emalynn while Matthew and I go walk. Emalynn has had a runny nose and hasnt had much of an appetite so I am not going to take the chance.
Tonight we are going to have a UFC night I think! Should be fun I hope there is some good fights!
The thing I have said to myself today the most... I will not let the cravings control me
Friday, February 4, 2011
End of Day 1 of Battle
As the day comes to an end I have to stay today was a good day! I have had no crazy cravings for Pepsi or chocolate which is a first this week. Nighttime has been a hard time for me I think its because Im finally relaxing and I get bored so I would go to the kitchen. Now I plan on making it my blog time and making it a point not to eat after dinner.
Matthew and I went for our run before dinner tonight and I did it! I pushed through the screaming lungs and legs and did all the intervals of running. I refuse to let my mind beat me, I can push my body much further then it thinks it can go. I am my own worst enemy! The whole time I was asking myself why I was doing this I kept saying to myself this is for me! I am doing this for me! I think its Matthew's favorite time of day because its the only time he can talk without without me interupting him because I am breathing to hard to say anything. He being in better shape then me doesnt really go for the workout he goes for the moral support. hopefully in a few months Ill be able to run long enough that it will be a good workout for both. I am having to take it slow due to my asthama.
I have discovered plain oatmeal can be made very yummy by adding a little splenda, some fresh fruit and cinnamon. Never been a big fan of oatmeal but I have began to really look forward to it. I talked to one of my good friends today on Facebook and when I told him I was eating an apple with some cheese he imformed me he was going to enjoy some ben and jerry's. Yes eat and enjoy Bob as you read this!
Remember..... eating is for energy not for comfort
Matthew and I went for our run before dinner tonight and I did it! I pushed through the screaming lungs and legs and did all the intervals of running. I refuse to let my mind beat me, I can push my body much further then it thinks it can go. I am my own worst enemy! The whole time I was asking myself why I was doing this I kept saying to myself this is for me! I am doing this for me! I think its Matthew's favorite time of day because its the only time he can talk without without me interupting him because I am breathing to hard to say anything. He being in better shape then me doesnt really go for the workout he goes for the moral support. hopefully in a few months Ill be able to run long enough that it will be a good workout for both. I am having to take it slow due to my asthama.
I have discovered plain oatmeal can be made very yummy by adding a little splenda, some fresh fruit and cinnamon. Never been a big fan of oatmeal but I have began to really look forward to it. I talked to one of my good friends today on Facebook and when I told him I was eating an apple with some cheese he imformed me he was going to enjoy some ben and jerry's. Yes eat and enjoy Bob as you read this!
Remember..... eating is for energy not for comfort
Day 1 of the battle
Welcome to my new Blog about my battle with losing my pregnacy+stress = extra weight! I am writing this because I would like to share my journey of this battle with others. We all know losing weight isnt easy and there are days I will want to give up and my hope is if I get it down in words those feelings will leave me.
Obseity runs in my family and I am determined that it will end with me. I want so much more for my girls. My mother was just diagnoised with diabetes and has a range of other health problems do to her weight. It is heartbreaking for me to see my mother struggle with all of this and I see my life going down the same road if I dont make a change. I put my girls and my husband before me in everything I do, it is time for me to make me a priority! My family is only healthy and happy if all of us are healthy and happy.
First off my life is a little different the average woman trying to lose the extra pounds, I am an Army wife. Trying to lose weight with stress is practically impossible so conquoering these stresses will come up a lot in my blog please feel free to ask questions about them and I will do my best to answer them as best I can.
Sunday was actually day one of the "new me" I stopped drinking Pepsi (my addcition) and finally proved to my wonderful husband he is my enabler. He isnt home much so when he is home he wants to make sure Im happy, I dont fault him its not like I said "no dont go". With this new found freedom for me I start on a journey to get back to a healthy happy weight.
Monday was the first day of my new work out schedule Monday, Wednesday, Friday I would like to walk/run my hope is over time I will be able to run but at the moment I run for 1 minute and walk for 2 minutes for 20 minutes. Tuesday and Thursday am doing Billy Blakes boot camp fat burning cardio.
My eating habits have always been ok its the portion control as well as to much of the extras. So now I am being more dilagent in my portion sizes and leaving out most of the extras. I am not cutting them out completely because then Ill beng on the chocolate, ice cream, cookies, and whatever else sounds good. But for now till I get my routine down and my eating habits extablished Ill be cutting them out. They say it takes 28 days to break a habit, so for the first month Im going to cut them out completely. This will be the hardest for me because I love chocolate!!!
If you have noticed I am not calling this a diet this is a lifestyle change! It can not be a diet because those end and then you gain all your weight back plus some. No this is a lifestyle change to be healthier, happier, and making sure my girls have a chance of have a thin healthy life as adults.
So my saying for myself today is Food is for energy not for comfort!
Just remember you are not alone in this battle we are all battling something in our life whether it be weight, smoking, drinking, and whatever else you can think of that is an addiction.
Obseity runs in my family and I am determined that it will end with me. I want so much more for my girls. My mother was just diagnoised with diabetes and has a range of other health problems do to her weight. It is heartbreaking for me to see my mother struggle with all of this and I see my life going down the same road if I dont make a change. I put my girls and my husband before me in everything I do, it is time for me to make me a priority! My family is only healthy and happy if all of us are healthy and happy.
First off my life is a little different the average woman trying to lose the extra pounds, I am an Army wife. Trying to lose weight with stress is practically impossible so conquoering these stresses will come up a lot in my blog please feel free to ask questions about them and I will do my best to answer them as best I can.
Sunday was actually day one of the "new me" I stopped drinking Pepsi (my addcition) and finally proved to my wonderful husband he is my enabler. He isnt home much so when he is home he wants to make sure Im happy, I dont fault him its not like I said "no dont go". With this new found freedom for me I start on a journey to get back to a healthy happy weight.
Monday was the first day of my new work out schedule Monday, Wednesday, Friday I would like to walk/run my hope is over time I will be able to run but at the moment I run for 1 minute and walk for 2 minutes for 20 minutes. Tuesday and Thursday am doing Billy Blakes boot camp fat burning cardio.
My eating habits have always been ok its the portion control as well as to much of the extras. So now I am being more dilagent in my portion sizes and leaving out most of the extras. I am not cutting them out completely because then Ill beng on the chocolate, ice cream, cookies, and whatever else sounds good. But for now till I get my routine down and my eating habits extablished Ill be cutting them out. They say it takes 28 days to break a habit, so for the first month Im going to cut them out completely. This will be the hardest for me because I love chocolate!!!
If you have noticed I am not calling this a diet this is a lifestyle change! It can not be a diet because those end and then you gain all your weight back plus some. No this is a lifestyle change to be healthier, happier, and making sure my girls have a chance of have a thin healthy life as adults.
So my saying for myself today is Food is for energy not for comfort!
Just remember you are not alone in this battle we are all battling something in our life whether it be weight, smoking, drinking, and whatever else you can think of that is an addiction.
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